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wherever you are
it's not where i am
so i'll have an attitude
until i fall asleep again
whatever the weather
i hope you stay dry
i lean on the pillar
wishing you would saunter by
did you like what i was wearing?
could you tell that i was high then?
i guess fuck your opinion
i am my own boyfriend
but it is so fun to feel so bad about someone
it is so fun to feel so bad about someone
it is so fun to feel so bad about someone
it is so fun
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trying to sleep,
but the thoughts are haunting me
i cant seem to fucking breathe
something's pulling me
falling down
spiral down onto the steps
the way the light catches each breath
opens up all memories kept
trying to sleep,
moiré patterns in my head
chaotic mess just cant forget
what they've been through
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so real
i'm here and you're there
escape
my room and to meet you
i'm over it, honestly
i'm not upset over
something so stupid
please still listen to me (x2)
i'm really over it now
i'm trying to confess
it's all around me!
so go...
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Thana Orchard - Tethers
03:11
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we are crabs in a barrel
looking for someone to harm
climbing up lubricated walls
have a feeling its sabotage
we are crabs in a barrel
pulling down into the swarm
climbing up lubricated walls
im not winning any cause
cause even with these tools
i still can feel your claws
cutting into my heels
just so i cannot walk
my path to freedom
involves confronting my demons
i dont blame you for distancing yourself
no way out so i turn and scream down these infinite halls
just trying to reciprocate some of the pain that youve caused
no way out so i turn and scream down these infinite halls
just trying to reciprocate some of the pain that youve caused
but all i hear is my own calls
echoed back
under attack
by my past
vicious pack
i will not let them
guide me into my fall
these tethers bind me
i dont know how they find me
these tethers bind me
some will guide me
keep me anchored to the ground
cant feel my feet anymore
cause i keep on running
away from something
the paths i carved for myself
leading me to this well
ive filled it with resentment
have to dry it like a desert
willing something better to come
this moment of pain is now done
holding tethers that ground me
letting go of ones that dont serve me
welcome home everyone
to the sun where weve won
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emmaoryx - Dogshows
02:46
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Try to leash me out of time I feel so, independent
Will you break me playing 1950,
Will you make me pray
and will you kiss me
How bout my lungs
How bout my heartstrings
Rope me along
I won’t feel nothing
Dog Shows
Trip my instincts
And
if stares still leave
Me still breathing
Well
I, won’t go home
In red or gold
I, won’t go home
In red or gold
Try to break my brittle bones
I bet you’re unrepentant
Show me why I sleep so light
And why I’m never mending
How bout my lungs
How bout my heartstrings
Rope me along
I won’t feel nothing
Dog Shows
Trip my instincts
And
if stares still leave
Me still breathing
Well
I, won’t go home
In red or gold
I, won’t go home
In red or gold
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Klonoa Grace - Sometimes
02:33
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Sometimes I'm just too much
Sometimes people just suck
Sometimes I slap myself
Sometimes I feel so dumb
Sometimes I lose it all
Sometimes I scream too loud
Sometimes I cut myself
Sometimes I hate myself
Veins popping out my eye
Blood pouring down my shirt
In my gothic mini skirt
I run away from the hurt
Today I just might die
With two sides of anger
One filled with envy
And the other with hate
Wasting my time in suspended animation
Symbiotic, sure, but don’t feel a sensation
Scared of the world, scared of this stimulation
About my decisions that have fallen to shit
And now let’s take one more damn hit
Sometimes I'm just too much
Sometimes people just suck
Sometimes I slap myself
Sometimes I feel so dumb
Sometimes I lose it all
Sometimes I scream too loud
Sometimes I cut myself
Sometimes I hate myself
Where did my best friend go?
She spat inside my throat
Pink, green and kinda rad
But she didn’t text back
Her letters still in tact
Low effort chicken scratch
Crushed when I was tender
And now she has a boyfriend
Hold me down
Lock me up
Stay with me through the night
Hold me down
Lock me up
You won’t end up alright
Hold me down
Lock me up
Stay with me through the night
Hold me down
Lock me up
Crush me ‘til I can’t breathe
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mousemallow - lately
03:13
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Lately I'm succumbing to my illness and my frailty, fell apart at seams
Maybe something in the ether tried to change me, reoccurring theme
Plague brings poison in the river of the daydreams I've stopped worshipping
Baby sever the connections of my doll strings, I'll do anything
Sawing down my limbs
Every aspect vivisected
Anaesthetic wearing thin
Brain to soul link disconnected
Tides that I can't swim
Not the life that I expected
Cushion full of pins
Killed at my own resurrection
Can we run away and sail together on the high seas, drifting silently?
Let's go where De Sade can never hurt us
We'll be carefree far away from the cities
Can't fall asleep
So many noises piercing deep
Skin pricked with roses
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florelle - ladybug
03:14
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(tammy)
ladybug on a bench
i could crush you in my hand but i won't
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I'm the guy you said you seen out in that club down soho
it's all cool, I know you said you're high
but this X on my hand keeps my own mind
time, time's speeding
to slow it down it bores us out
to speed you have to close your eyes
how far you seem to fall
it's all about our timing
you know I'm the cutest guy in here?
high people really talk shit
you fight to have this moment back
so far the X just seems to lack
so far you want to send this
fire that's burning us back
--<-<-@
so rid this run around lets see if we can't mess this up
I've seen you everywhere
so far you've failed to think clear every time
you say its all about our timing
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